How can I be the most helpful and content person that I possibly can be? That is the question that I have for right now. I am tired of trying tired of fighting and I just want to be able to be content in my circumstances.

I am facing yet another procedure, tubes placed in my ears. The nurse who explained the procedure made me laugh when she said take some tylenol or motrin before the appointment to help with the pain. I take stronger stuff than just the OTC meds to try and keep my pain at a tolerable level. So I will be taking the stonger stuff on monday just to try and stay somewhat comfortable and out of my head.

I may call my PCP on monday and see if she will call in a single dose of Xanax or something similar just to try and help me relax because I am a little uncomfortable with the thought of the doctor going with a scapel into my ear canal. Especially when I have to balance my big body, got to be honest I aint supermodel thin, on an exam table that is less wide than a twin mattress.

I have to make another appointment with my PCP because since I had my shunt turned down to try and lessen the intensity/frequency of migraines and other similar headaches...my pressure headaches can cause migraines in me. The side of my neck that has the tubing on it has been swollen and painful to move. I have had one trigger point injection on that side which helped for about a day very much, since then it hasnt gotten as bad as it was before the injection but still is not very easy to deal with. I can atleast move my head with out having to move my whole upper body which is a big plus when I am trying to drive.

Yesterday I worked and had one of the boys with me the entire day, he woke up with a 101.0 temperature. I took his older brother to school, then went home to pick up my medicine since I was not going to be at home to take my meds, went to the pharmacy to pick up meds for the sick boy since I could payroll deduct there, then we went back to his house, called my ENT got an appointment for that day, went to the ENT appointment, went back to the pharmacy to pick up ear drops that I need to put in again when I am done typing this blog entry, went home let the kiddo sleep for another couple of hours, went to school to pick the older boy up, came home the kiddo went back to sleep upstairs when we woke him for dinner he was burning up with temperature 104.9 and I didnt wait for it to beep I took him up stairs and got him into a lukewarm bath I really didnt want to have a febrile seizure because he was so hot, or drop his body temp too quickly and trigger a seizure that way. I only let the bath drop his temperature by a degree and a half, then put him in undies and a pair of shorts and let him have his blanket back. I didnt put a shirt on him to facilitate the body's cooling off ability....no shirt was also used because I knew that he was going to wrap up in the blanket and I didnt was an extra layer to make him hotter.

I have got to check on the kiddo today to see how he is doing since grandma was planning on taking him to see the doctor.

Just got off the phone with the grandma, his highest temperature that the kiddo ran for grandma was 99 degrees. Of course he has be be a little stinker for me but behaves somewhat for her temperature wise.

The other appointment that I have for this up coming week is going to the dentist to get my crown fitted. It came in early so we are going to fit it early. This is another step in the process of getting me to where I can go for a work week over spring break to Camp.

There is a possiblity of me getting a part time medical assistant position with one of my personal physicians, scratch that angels, because he is my pain managment doctor. I am waiting on getting a phone call from the medical review officer that did my drug test. I know that I probably popped on the opiods since I am on 2 different pain killers that are both opiods.

Mindy