Tears wont stop coming

The tears just wont stop coming. I am not totally sure why but the simplest thing will make me boo hoo. I saw the dentist today and got a lecture since I hadn't flossed my teeth this morning, I did brush my teeth but how my teeth fit together to get the front teeth looking decent you need to floss them. I am holding tight, at least trying to, to the fact that I am doing the best I can when just putting anything in my mouth aggrevates my gag reflex and makes it real easy to start puking. I am just tired of fitting this battle and am to the point of being tempted to not see him again for 18 months or so. But I wont do that, I will see if I can get a Xanax to take before the next appointment because I really dred that place at the current moment.

I had ear tubes placed on monday and that was a challenge the numbing drops feel like fire when they are first placed, it takes a lot to screw up my composure when it comes to being ready for a medical procedure but I lost it and when the left side wasn't totally numb and I was feeling sharp pain when I wasnt supposed to feel anything but some pressure I was past not happy. But I honestly dont regret doing the procedure, my vertigo is better and I actually have had periods of time when my ears dont ring, and CPAP therapy at night is going so much better I have actually kept it on for all night for 2 nights in a row.

I have got to call my PCP and get scheduled for her to do something about the 2 ingrown toenails that I have right now. It is a chronic problem for me but since it only happens about 2 times per year it really isnt that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things.

I see my shrink in a week or two and if I am still this over emotional I will see if he would be willing to put me on a low dose anti-depressant. I know that there is a big risk for me to be placed on any type or dose of anti-depressant because of my bipolar disorder, but I need some happy help. And I will be going on a sleep aid at my next pain management appointment to try and make it where I can get 8 hours of solid sleep and have it not be interrupted 2-3 times in the night with the exception of last night when I only ended getting up 1 time.

Please pray for Anna as she has surgery today and is tired of being sick and tired of the headache that is honestly so miserable and difficult to cope with that you can take the worst pain in your life multiply it by 50 and you might get close to the pain and what effects it has your quality of life.